symphonyonasoldier on tumblr tagged me in this, but since it’s a longer post, I decided to answer here 🙂
Music is really what I live and breathe. I usually go through my day having listened to a whole bunch of different artists, and when I’m not, one can usually find me humming or singing a song… or I just have a song stuck in my head where no one can hear it. 🙂 I love listening to Troye Sivan because his music makes me feel relaxed and like I can be okay with myself – some of his songs, like Wild, Fools, Talk Me Down, and Blue remind me of the ocean, but that might just be because I’ve watched the Blue Neighbourhood trilogy. Tenth Avenue North is what I listen to when I’m really down and I need to remember God still loves me and is always here for me. Fall Out Boy’s lyrics make me realize someone else feels like I do. I just really love a wide variety of music, but my standard genre is that category called alternative (aka iTunes lumping everything together that isn’t pop or country or opera or something).
I’ve loved to read since a very young age – one of my very first favourites was The Lord of the Rings, actually. I stopped reading for pleasure during high school and the first few years of university, but I recently got back into it and all I can say is, there is nothing better than getting lost in a good book and forgetting all the crap that exists in the world. I love going into bookstores and looking at the books and smelling the books – I love being surrounded by books – I love reading them – I love trying my hand at writing them…. I just really love the way that words can transform our lives and the stories that they can tell.
3. My Family
Of course, there are the arguments and the whining that parents are unfair and everything else that goes along with living together, but I really do love my family. My sister is my bestest of friends and she can comfort me when no one else can. My dad is hilarious (seriously, he should be a comedian) and our relationship is built upon him making funny comments and me trying to top him (I never do). My mother is another of my best friends. I used to think she could never understand and while I know she can’t understand EVERYTHING, she understands a lot more than I used to give her credit before. I like talking to her before bed to put my mind more at ease. Actually, in the entire family, my mom and I probably understand each other best because we’re most alike – and the older I get, the more like her I find myself becoming.
4. My Friends
I grew up with those stories about the two friends who knew each other since birth or something and were best friends for eternity. Let it be suffice to say that that was NOT my experience. I had a few friends, but they always had better friends and it wasn’t too long before contact was dropped and I never heard from them again. I feel a lot closer to the friends I’ve made more recently. I’ll do a couple shout outs of my closest friends and I just know I’m going to forget someone because I have the worst memory. *sigh*
Emma. I love you so much. You’ve been there for me through all the ups and downs even when you didn’t agree with what I was doing. You’ve introduced me to some of the best tv shows and books. You’re so smart and beautiful and I can tell you’re going to go far in life. I’m so proud of what you’ve done already and I always want you to be around to send me bubble-bath beard pictures and scream over male characters.
Faith. I think you’ve probably been there for me more than anyone else ever has because you understand it ALL. I love being able to talk to you about anything under the sun, whether it be the deep and the disgusting or the fluff. And our role-playing games. Man. I’m so glad it was our Melody and Aragorn rpg being left unfinished that brought us back into friendship after that year-or-two gap after high school in which I lost all my other friends from those three years. I just wish we could room together RIGHT NOW, and I know you’re only however many hours away, but it’s much too much too much too far.
Franzi. My little angel from Germany. Again, you’ve been there for me and I’ve been glad to be able to be there in like kind. I just want the best in life for you and while our talking is more on again, off again, I’m reminded of you every single time I see one of your incredible Supernatural fanfiction posts on tumblr, or when I listen to Photograph by Ed Sheeran.
Giorgina who told me to come over into the Learning Center because I shouldn’t be alone and then listened to me try not to cry and explain things as we walked over to her class. Dru for explaining things to me and giving me mental strength to keep on going even when I felt like throwing up and didn’t want to go to class. Sabine for defending me on tumblr before we even knew each other and then inviting me to talk with her friends and make LOTR edits with them. Chloe for our Supernatural rpg and messaging me when you see in my tumblr tags that I’m not doing too well. Ben for giving me relationship advice and ranting about how simply awful the Peter Jackson LOTR movies are. Eliot for discussing books (after actually reading them together) and politics with me and being my ace buddy. Maegen for being my other ace buddy and talking about homeschooling and Supernatural and so on and so forth. Ronaldo for sending me stories and poems and songs and listening to me rant about not being enough and him going, ‘yup, me, too.’
Ugh I’m sure I’ve missed someone, but of course last, but not least, there’s my Rodrigo. I still don’t understand how you deal with the bitter, moody, cynical, and difficult person I am, but somehow you love me all the same. You’re probably one of the most patient people I know (okay, my dad’s more patient) and I could probably go on for hours listing the number of times you have been fine with me being me. I’m a writer, but I can never think up of words for you. My mind hasn’t been the greatest place over the last year, but when I’m with you, all the millions of thoughts seem to disappear. My favourite thing is just to sit in silence with you, whether that is in the car or cuddling up next to you and pretending I could fall asleep on your shoulder. (I have never been able to take naps.)
5. Movies and TV and Musicals
I’m listening to The Sound of Music soundtrack right now and maybe it’s the music influencing me, but I really do love movies. I don’t know a whole lot of them, but most of the ones I do are pretty near and dear to me. I love how there are all these other mediums of telling story ,and how you can even take bits and pieces from each type and mix them together to create something like a musical. I love picking out more characters and adopting them as my mind children (such as Thomas from Downton Abbey). I love how it’s never just the movie or tv show, there’s always something more – the soundtrack, peeling out the layers with analysis, the theories and headcanons, etc etc etc. I know that there are a lot of cheesy and garbage movies out there, but maybe that just makes the good ones shine out the brighter.
6-10. Just Little Life Things
I’m running out things to say, but even though I’m a firm believer that you won’t ever be really happy until Heaven, I also think there are a lot of little things in life that create moments of beauty. For example,
- I love smelling pine trees and walking through forests and finding flowers and mushrooms along the way.
- I love the smell of fresh bread.
- I love petrichor and walking in the rain and listening to the sound of rain and just RAAAAAIN.
- I love going to Mass and just talking with Jesus and Mary and knowing that everything is alright with me and God is the best feeling in the entire world.
- I love when Emma and I give each other the “everyone else in this conversation is an idiot and we two are the only sane ones” look.
- And I really love spreading love everywhere – cards, checking up on aquaintances to see how they’re doing, smiles and kind words. It’s my favourite thing to do.
- (I also really like making lists because I am Trash.)
And there we go! I hope this covers what I was supposed to do. It was a lot of fun and very relaxing to type this all up. 🙂